Thursday, February 25, 2016

Alcohol



         When I was in college I used to party and drink during the weekends. Since my accident and after college, I occasionally have a glass of wine or a mixed drink with dinner. I don’t know why this happens, maybe it’s because I don’t drink that often, but alcohol affects me so much more. I don’t like to drink now. Basically, I don’t like to fall. It’s like, in case I don’t have trouble with walking enough, why not add liquor into the equation and have even more trouble?? 
      It’s so strange that I crossed the median and went head-on with a pick-up truck. It’s so strange because there were no drugs or alcohol involved and it was the middle of the day!! I may have possibly fainted because I did twice at AU before and I was at the time anemic.
      Occasionally, I do miss sharing a couple of drinks while partying with friends. I miss that sort-of care free type of feeling that alcohol brings. What I miss the most is that it was kind a stress reliever for me. However, when I look back on those times, I really don’t miss the stuff that much. It made you feel great, but it was only for a little while!


Wednesday, February 17, 2016

My Dad



         My father used to take me walking weekly. This was during the time we were both unemployed. Walking makes me feel like I’m accomplishing something and to take that away from me would be devastating. My father knew that and did not want me to be devastated.
         I used to take about an hour to walk the entire track, which was VERY slow. I haven’t timed myself in a long time. The last time that I timed myself it was about 35 minutes. It was still extremely slow, but a little better.
    My father used to walk along right beside me, which meant a ton considering how slow I was walking! It was only when he thought I could walk by myself that he would jog ahead of me. I was very relieved when this happened because I absolutely love doing things for myself. It is upsetting to me how much I cannot do for myself. So the smallest bit of progress excites me! I recently was on a staff retreat which was a huge step for me, but I’ll tell you more about that in a future blog.